A brand new life

Most of your life, you have been in and out of relationships so many times that every time you think about getting into one, you will cringed and fear for the next failure. You’ve lost faith and always feel with insecurity. I know that the last experience that I’ve had wasn’t much of insecurity but a lot of losing faith in the relationship. A relationship that I’ve got into that wasn’t what I wanted as we had too much differences as well as culture / upbringing gap (a big one). It took 3 years to get the gap two levels nearer however it is still too far apart to even get us able to live the life together, or more like I can’t accept the life that was drawn in front of me, with him. The gap that we had was too far apart and we had too much of differences in lifestyle, culture, thinking that it creates frictions in between us. I either had to accept it or leave it. Why? Simply because the other party was too ignorant to realise how his behaviour or thinking was destroying the relationship. In the end, I didn’t blame but walked away after a great argument that showed me how this is a never ending issues.

And then along the journey of the above, I met someone.

I was still very insecure and faithless which creates fear in getting into a new relationship thinking that I had have enough of breakups and etc for half of my life now. However, our friendship creates a strong and trusting foundation that we are so comfortable with each other. Knowing and learning each other’s lifestyle and beliefs as well as mindset that it is amazing to know how similar we are in a lot of things. I was afraid to believe that this time I could have finally found someone that do understand me and will go so far to do things for me (not that I am a complicated person or demanding lolx).

Well good luck to me for a new brand life.



How have you all been after my MIA for more than a week!?